Relocation

Our city becomes another’s city and they don’t even live here.

Our city becomes another city that will one day glow, for miles underwater.

Our city has strategically-planned streets, and accidental cobblestones. The neighborhoods have their symbols, their light-pole banners, their car washes and coffee shops. Clogged drains and stray dogs and condos and bullfrogs. A little fence to keep the heart in. A garden. Ten Thai restaurants in a row. A bus stop and a newspaper on every homeless porch.

The neighborhoods remain separate, or they collide. Some are ramming into each other, smash-mixing, in the time it takes one body to fall from the observation deck.

The streets below the streets are daunting, gurgling with sewage. A black-gloved hand motions outside a window. People are coughing, steaming into each other’s faces on the subway. No one has a face unless it is cut out of a magazine.

I moved out of the city. Now, my neighbor is the one whose name I forget every other conversation. His neighbor is me, and a young family with closed blinds and a yard full of broken plastic. We circle each other like dogs, not saying anything. But the truth is that we live with our families and this is a nice neighborhood, close to schools and shopping.

I moved out of the city and now I don’t even live here.

My neighbor remembers how bright his city glowed too.
Our sons are jerks and we are embarrassed by what we thought we knew.

 

This poem of mine was just published on uutpoetry. so this is basically a cross-blogging platform #reblog.

eat me, she said
and she folded up her head.

i played at the creases until they bled
my want is a seagull with blood on its beak
not falling on
fish in a creek-
my need is a more prudent bird

you taste like your words
and i believe them, you taste like
direct sunlight hitting the brain
!the best kind of pain!
popsicle-stick headaches
and fat drops of rain

i am ready to ask you to let me in
i am ready now
to collect you on my chin.

a certain kind of homesickness

thanks to our parents
we were allowed to have
our own apartment.

a graph on the bathroom mirror
let us know how many days
we’d been outside
and that half our weed 
was in the couch cushions

and for a while there
we never cleaned out the fridge
and all our laundry
piled up in the sink

these people started 
to call our phones
their voices 
fit through the walls-

we rubbed our lips
on dryer sheets 
and waited for 
our ears to hum.

No One Belongs Here More Than You

our limbs are only softening
around the joints
and in the end, having to
find not only one single place to be ourselves
but to live out the life of a circus
wicked torches and trapeze wires
delicate and bracing,
strong and self-referential
a homesick tiger, pacing

spotlights dusting below
the under-cup of your breasts
it’s wetter on the dark side of the moon
nothing grows and nothing glows
but the potential leans out at us, for life
from the cratered things
which taste of borrowed light
from other galaxies 

the same tired words
now exploded on our tongues.

Title borrowed from a story (collection) by the wonderful Miranda July, because it ‘belonged’. The rest is my own.

what are microdreams anyway? are these them?

apple-blown boots / worn by impotent marauders

lachrymose papyrus / indescribably lucid scripture

lips splayed for days / endowed suckerfish

tantric eels / surgical head rush

plausibly known / indubitable moan

original stapler / the fresh-pressed lapels of a king 

dusk collects at dawn / what is forgotten on the lawn

phlegm the dinosaur / parties in a flax cabin

Benched

We met the first time at an outdoor jazz festival
so why are we folding clothes
in this sad humming spaceship of a Laundromat
we were going to be better than that
we were going to
we were going to stop stealing detergent
or whatever we could get our hands on.

your lips and ears are famous
but you lost face with what’s between them
i didn’t mean them
i meant that we were going to

not end up like our teachers.

it turns out we were worse off.

our hands dipped in milk
to take the edge off
we are tracing circles of frost on glass
until the coach asks
who’s got fresh legs?

we look at our legs and then look at each other

and become a team.

2 Pigeons

We stood, hand in hand, two pigeons on a live wire

when time edged in, under the door like a folded rug.

The neighbourhood cats circling, tails twining below

they stopped at once, to lie on their backs and open

their jaws wide as whales. Our skin prickled with fright

under our feathers and we twisted our heads

all the way around and looked down at them-

their pink-ribbed mouths reminded us

of our bubblegum-thin lungs. Age came to us,

grayed us and curled around us on the wire before

 

the cats left us alone.  

Baby Appeal

A certain someone,  
Annie, wants a baby
Let’s make evil- he kicked at her
Lovin and touchin in yellow grass,
naked in the rain for
one hot minute.

When the fire happens- he lied
this is the place
(universally speaking)
C’mon girl, and drink from this
body of water
Behind the sun we’ll have our baby
slowly deeply and pain twisting in the
Blackwoods
Warm tape and
Why don’t you love me- because
You always sing the same.

True men don’t kill coyotes
by the way
You’re gonna get yours, Annie,
if you have to ask
(if you give it away).

A (partial) Found Poem. Source is the complete discography (song titles) of the Red Hot Chili Peppers.

Whiteflesh

I went to your lifeguard job.

Asking if you wanted to show
me your mussels – you know what
I mean – said yes as you
clamped a hand around your pipefish,

said yes to the whitecap wave
of your shoulders – I mean it –
pinched by the unwelcome mitten crab
then, going out with the tide
and coming in, and even then

to come upon fluorescent monsters, inkling
a newborn squid- that ancient tingling.   

The Inconsolata and Wounded

At the edge of stuck time, a tribe lived near
to where the whole world softens to a point-
the bayou ghosts are swirled through
with vacuum dust from the future
and trees bloat with the excreta
of parasite operations-

The Inconsolata
built unholy boats on the beach,
fathers fathers sons sons
cleaving skin from muscle among the old and diseased-
the hulls were quilts of human need

Unstitching time inside the caves,
sad shapes of women
blotched deep-purple, swollen thumbs  
stained with blood and blackberries
something starved-black
and gaping
out of the backs of their swathed and boiled heads

The Inconsolata
who have seen their boats dissolved-
brother-sisters and sister-brothers
called to the depths, in lulls or storms-
those on the shore
who have seen the black doves take wing from water
to manage the sinking, in coupling,
and byzantine aerial formations 

to manage the wounded, quietly suffering
left to soak in silver pools, miles below mountains
wishing to be lain beside rivers
where the moss
could sprout from their chins-
wishing for a green kind of help
from a tribe
interested only in skins.