The Call Is Coming From Inside The Womb

An insistent knocking begins the haunting of a pediatrician’s office- until a scrappy receptionist discovers the nature of the ghostly intruders.

I am going South- this train is taking me to Newport, Kentucky- where I am hired to work as a receptionist for my American uncle. He’s a pediatrician-obstetrician, my uncle, and I am to call him Dr. Lewiston and be grateful that he’s taken a chance on me, given the hell I put my parents through at school this year. I am to make reparations over the summer.  

Dr. Lewiston has no choice but to hire me, anyway, and I have typist training. None of the girls in Newport will take the position, he confided in his brother (my father). Parents are scared. Women are miscarrying at an alarming rate, and rumours are flying. If it’s the water supply or ancient curses, I don’t know, but everyone is healthy! Then the unthinkable happens. My last receptionist miscarries in our waiting room, with zero warning, dying later of a bloodstream infection. My reputation, lives of my friends- all are under threat. I need help, Jack. 

My father, scared of raising children and desperate to impress his physician brother, turns to me with eyes chaining like slot machines and tells me to pack. He says: Any place odds are below zero on Julia having a baby, Ed, is fine by us. She’s turning her life around. I already got to keep myself from killing the boy who turned it around in the first place. Then he sings on down the road to buy my ticket.  

Newport is amazing! Alive with night creatures, entertainment, and a kind of needy neon sickness I am already in love with. When I answer the office phone for the first time, it is like a new woman speaking: Thank you for calling Ohio River Family Care Clinic, how do you do? As if I’d been saying it all my life.  

I’m good at my job. It’s simple work and I love my budding friendships with the small-town people, learning their problems and minding their children. I make friends- with Miss Tee next door and Candace, who is older than me, married and works at the grocery store. But strange things are happening. A sensation of dread hangs in the office and disappears outside. When recording intake with patients over the phone, I hear strange clicks. Dr. Lewiston assures me the telephone lines are fussy and not to worry. When I’m alone, I’m driven mad by tiny incessant knocks. At first, I thought it was someone at the door, or tapping the doorplate out back, but I never catch anyone. I start to believe I’m going crazy. And I obsess about the clinic freezer. 

Three knocks on the doorplate- then six more, at a quicker tempo. This is Wilkes, the delivery boy. He has keys to the locked freezer and I don’t. Dr. Lewiston likes the milk to stay cold, so Wilkes comes and goes as he pleases. I wonder what he does back there besides drop off milk. I can’t ever leave the waiting room unattended, so I watch the clock and sometimes he’s in for ten minutes. There’s no money around either- just insurance paperwork and patient files- but there are expensive fish in the tank.  

One day I am lying on a picnic blanket beside the Licking River, with Candace spread out next to me. We are eating peeled grapes and sunflower seeds when a dark shadow crosses the blanket. I look up and see Wilkes, his orange threat of hair shining above a freckled glare. Get lost, creep, Candace warns. After he slinks off, I tell her about the door codes and the freezer- how I think he’s more than a milk boy.  

Candace’s mood darkens, and she tells me about Dr. Lewiston on the night of her miscarriage. There was so much blood. She lost consciousness repeatedly. Once when her husband left the room, Dr. Lewiston leaned in and whispered, You’ll be okay. Your baby isn’t big enough to make the cat jealous. Not like the others– and she won’t tell me anything he did after that. But I keep thinking something dark is going wrong inside my uncle. I promise Candace I won’t say anything, but I tell Miss Tee. Child, she says, I don’t know the good doctor, but it don’t feel right that so many babies ain’t makin’ it. Ask your questions. Miss Tee’s warning circles my head, and three nights in a row, I dream of breaking my fingernails along a cliff’s ledge, above a roaring sea, with my boyfriend screaming at me from the water. 

I wait for Wednesday, when Dr. Lewiston goes out for lunch, then make my move. I use the lockpick technique my boyfriend taught me, and I’m in the freezer lickety-split. It is horrific. Rows of giant or mini white fetuses, suspended in jars of green liquid. A Jell-O Salad of newborns floating in artificial wombs, instead of the marshmallows and pineapples Miss Tee prepares for the clinic staff. Except they move. One fetus clenches and unclenches a tiny fist. Another blinks open eyes yellower than goldenrod. Effortlessly kicks out a leg. A complicated network of machinery and tubes appear to be involved in nourishing them, keeping them alive. Not just alive- 

I’m sorry, Julia. Wilkes is pointing a gun in my face. I can’t let you leave, he whines in an awful nasal voice. The milk-splattered delivery apron is gone, replaced by a black suit, hat and sunglasses. He looks thirty years older. We’ll have to convince your father you’ve run away, won’t we, Dr. Lewiston? 

My uncle emerges from the shadows, face streaked with sweat. The yellow-eyed babies are smiling at us. They are growing up outside the womb. Already I sense vengeance shadowing their little hearts, seething in their yellow liquefied eyes, invading like the rampant ivy draping the backdoor entrance of the clinic. 

I scream and the babies scream underwater in unison. 

You’ve run away, my uncle mumbles, and his eyes become that liquefied yellow just as Wilkes pulls the trigger. 

A Lifetime of Milk

Carl stood under the umbrella, looking out across the downtown square. In coveralls reeking of machine oils and sweat, made worse by the rain. On the farm, Carl remembered, nothing was ever made worse by rain.

The old man’s farm. Paved over. A lifetime of milk and red earth-tinged memories. Sprouting tall buildings now, where sweet corn and green pastures once flowered. Where an old cow giving birth kicked the daylights out of his five-year old head. He got to name that one, ol’ Milk Dud, on account of how much his head bled.

And now he was the old man. He couldn’t have told you how it happened, but it did, and the city came up all around them. Lost the farm, hired on at the factory. At least he and Barb had the kids.

A tiny spasm wracked his hand and the umbrella slid out. Carl winced. The arthritis was flaring up, more and more these days. He collapsed to his knees. Why the heck did he come back here? And in his coveralls! He stuck out like a sore thumb. And in fact his thumbs were sore, and the truth was that being here made him feel there wasn’t a thing left worth livin’ for.

-originally publ. on flashfriday.wordpress.com

Stella

Stella lurched over the last hill, clutching at the front of her dress in agony. She reached the stone domicile just in time; she could feel the bairn being coaxed out by the cool fingers of mist riding low in the air. She ducked inside. Into the black heart of a home, dug into a green hill.

She left her body on the floor, momentarily, when the Tacksman’s bairn finally shuddered out with a single prolonged wail. His face was sweet and red, still slick with her oils. She studied its shape for traces of the Tacksman- she could find none. He was hers alone, at least in possibility; it was possible that the Tacksman’s imprint had stopped short of her son. Given time, the boy could grow to resemble the man that he would call his father. Or else, the scarring on her heart could heal… but over time, men only grow into their monsters.

– originally publ. on flashfriday.wordpress.com

Musical Chairs

In fifth grade, our class chewed up and spit out a revolving door of music teachers. Our first victim was Mr. Alexander, a tall Asian man with ruthless expectations. He demanded “tone, tone, semi-tone” until we could hear it no more and locked him in the vault, which happened to be the music office. He got his revenge by leaving kids at the side of the road on a field trip, but by then it was too late- Mrs. Hyde had arrived.

Mrs. Hyde/Jekyll stamped her heels with such enthusiasm that eventually, one flew off and struck a student in the eye. Given our campaign (in progress) to record (in secret) her violence to use against her, the principal had no choice but to introduce Mr. Gilbert.

The old man disappeared on an alleged cross-country motorcycle trip. This, of course, when we had just begun to like him.

The Family Meeting

“My vote is for coleslaw,” Greg announced to the table, sliding his green thumb along the edge of the placemat. Dad snorted, opening and closing his fist as if he held a great clump of fertilizer in his palm. Why we needed to have a family meeting for this was beyond me, but I sat in my chair anyway and twisted my ivy hair to make sure that Mom could see that I was bored out of my tree.

“Violet? Honey, we need your vote…” Mom gave me a kind of pleading look and I saw that her eyes were the colour of milk bottle beach glass. I rolled my eyes and got up to leaf.

“Violet! Sit down this instant. Finish your spinach.”

“F*ck you, Mom. You never cook what I want.”

“Well, what is it you want?” Mom groaned, pretending to hang herself with a green onion noose. Greg and Dad went hysterical. Dad laughed so hard that his big belly bumped up against the underside of the table. His brussels sprouts hopped up and down on the plate, rolling out in a dozen different directions.

“I want eggplant, tomorrow night. And you’re all going to eat it right along with me.”

“F*ck you, Violet. That’s far too exotic. Do you think money just grows on trees?”

I could just kill them.

Relocation

Our city becomes another’s city and they don’t even live here.

Our city becomes another city that will one day glow, for miles underwater.

Our city has strategically-planned streets, and accidental cobblestones. The neighborhoods have their symbols, their light-pole banners, their car washes and coffee shops. Clogged drains and stray dogs and condos and bullfrogs. A little fence to keep the heart in. A garden. Ten Thai restaurants in a row. A bus stop and a newspaper on every homeless porch.

The neighborhoods remain separate, or they collide. Some are ramming into each other, smash-mixing, in the time it takes one body to fall from the observation deck.

The streets below the streets are daunting, gurgling with sewage. A black-gloved hand motions outside a window. People are coughing, steaming into each other’s faces on the subway. No one has a face unless it is cut out of a magazine.

I moved out of the city. Now, my neighbor is the one whose name I forget every other conversation. His neighbor is me, and a young family with closed blinds and a yard full of broken plastic. We circle each other like dogs, not saying anything. But the truth is that we live with our families and this is a nice neighborhood, close to schools and shopping.

I moved out of the city and now I don’t even live here.

My neighbor remembers how bright his city glowed too.
Our sons are jerks and we are embarrassed by what we thought we knew.

 

This poem of mine was just published on uutpoetry. so this is basically a cross-blogging platform #reblog.

Lizard Skin

J. packs another bowl and we pass it around a few times, getting a decent buzz going, and then we all go upstairs to see Rusko. Our group is divided between those who have seen Rusko before and those who have no idea what to expect. K. shows us to his room, and everyone gathers around the dresser. On top of the dresser is a huge glass terrarium and inside it- a motionless yellow-brown banded gecko.

K. lifts the creature out of the terrarium and presents it to us, beaming, and the girls smile indulgently and quietly slide their phones from their back pockets. “Here,” M. whispers to me, “let me take a picture of you with the lizard.”

“He’s a Velvet Gecko,” K. announces proudly, looking down at his cupped hands.

I don’t want to touch it, thinking for some reason of the resin on my hands. I’m afraid that I’ll hurt the thing- who knows what’s going to poison something this fragile? I bend my torso around Rusko instead, positioning my head directly behind, and at eye-level. From the viewpoint of M.’s camera, the effect of my round, red-cheeked face is Rusko transformed; he acquires the majesty of his prehistoric ancestors, solemn and unblinking against the backdrop of a rising sun.   

We pack more bowls, and take lots of pictures of Rusko chilling out on top of everyone’s heads.

A Chili Reception

He slammed the pot down on the stove, sending a spray of kidney beans and ground beef flying through the kitchen. The beef hit the fridge in clods. Her face, the dog, stunned and speckled with the grey-brown meat. The kidney beans slapped on the tile in quick succession, littering the floor like fallen crabapples.

Perhaps he would be allowed to attend the Superbowl party after all, she decided, using a thumb to swipe the grease from her nose. The empty pot still clenched in his fist, he looked her right in the eyes.

She thanked God that he hadn’t yet added the tomatoes.